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The point here is not controversy in MY battle, but your issues and observations as you respond and react to this journal and show your zeal ========================================= Dear Steve, I just wanted to say that without mr. Lewis' books on Christianity I probably won't be a Christian. He really meant a lot to me. Have you read his books? All of them? They're such a lucid defense of Christianity, and we need that. I hope you will read them and revise your judgment. Kind
regards, Steve here: This Hollander is not born again. He is not able to receive the Gospel without CS Lewis making it clear to him. He has Reformation Bibles all around him in The Netherlands, and he had to have an Anglo make it clear. The day the Gospel needs the "defense" of a drunken womanizer using occult imagery is the day we lost the Gospel forever. _______________________ Here are some ideas on tract placement. I place tracts inside public phone booths. Inside of shoes for sale in Wal*Marts and Targets (row after row of shoes to put tracts inside of). I walk down the Aisles in stores and place tracts where ever I see fit. When walking through parking lots filled with cars, if I see a car window left open, I slip in a tract and keep moving. On sinks inside of bathrooms (Restaurants, Fast Food etc. Bowling alleys and Dept. Stores) All have bathrooms with sinks to put tracts on. I put tracts in Shopping carts at grocery stores, in the aisles on top of food boxes. I go into public libraries and put tracts inside of books that promote witchcraft (Section 133) and other such anti-christian ideals (Aisle upon Aisle of books to place hundreds of tracts inside of) I go to book stores and do the same. While walking around town if I see any table or flat elevated surface such as a mail box (not in, but on), it's a place to leave a tract. I randomly choose a house of the month in my neighborhood and anonymously send them Christian literature. Don _______________________ dear private van nattan on my wanderings in the world wide web, I have found your war room the other day. let me tell you that there is a lot of stuff in there that german churches and especially the german men would need to hear. my country is so oppressed with demonic clergy, money counting, worrying about the future, although we have all this education, material affluence, a seeking spirit... but we bought humanism hook line and sinker. we have a women controlled society, a government of cowards, mindcontrolling late night news without vision. many of the millions of german men have become so weak and carnal. Jezebel has sneaked in. I hope I can make a difference for my country in laodicea. but there also is a new house church movement happening, and the work is in progress. the war in the heavenlies will rage on. and we know who will win in the end. the truth is important to be heard, so please be careful how you present it ! greetings to the americas, karlsbad, germany Steve here: In the War Room section I give myself the rank of private. The highest rank in the Lord's Church is Captain, who is the Lord Jesus himself. _______________________ From Vencent Morgan in New York comes this report from Beersheva, Israel The state of Israel may love the cash of gullible Bible believers who think the Jews are the friend of Jesus, but on the ground it is still a hate-Jesus world:
Steve here: Please do not think all Jews and Arabs are filled with such hate. Some are listening, and some have believed in Jesus Christ, the Son of God. But, we need to understand that Israel is 100% pagan in policy, and they are NOT doing the work of God in any fashion. _______________________ Steve here: Brace yourself, this is insane: Hi Steve, I'm hoping you might be able to help me in settling in my own mind the folly of what I heard this morning at "church". Please bear with me if I run on...I'm not a good writer. These are the scriptures that we were given to "prove" that we were to be on a local church member "roll". Numbers chapters 1 & 3, because of the "names on a "roll", 2 Samuel 23:24 forward, because the "names are listed on a "roll", Ezra Chapter 2, because the "names are listed on a "roll", Romans 14:1 "proves" that the "church membership roll" is open to even weak brethren, and the receiving of that weak brother "proves" that Paul is talking about "church membership". Acts chapter 1: 12-16 "proves" that a local church has a membership roll, (even though that women aren't listed by name) parenthetical my thought. Finally, 1 Corinthians 15:6....this is a hum dinger....proves that the 500 brethren are not as "good" a christian as the ones in Acts, because they are of a lesser class since they are not "named" on a membership roll like the brethren in Acts Chapter 1. So....we were told that those of us who are not "local church members" are on a lesser level with God than the "elite" "right hand of fellowship-extended" members of Such and Such Baptist Church! There were also references made to the Lamb's Book of Life, which I am on.....but almost as if it were second rate behind the "church roll book"! One poor older woman just about knocked her friend over trying to get to the "alter" to surrender her liberty in Christ to the pastor! HELP! You know Steve, if I'm wrong, I would GLADLY join the "local church" and do their thing.....but I don't think I'm wrong about this. Which is why I'm writing to you for help. I don't have a dad or brother or husband who is saved, so I hope it's o.k. to ask you, as an elder and a brother. Please set me straight if I need to be. What think ye of all this? I didn't say a word, I just thanked the pastor and left. Also, do you think it odd for the pastor and his wife to have their pictures up in the church entrance? Twice? I think it's weird. And he calls himself reverend...Psalm 111:9b? I do like to gather with the folks and sing hymns...but some of the teaching is off...lots of tithe terrorism. And being a woman, I am not about to confront him with this stuff. Do you think that's right? I will gratefully consider any help and/or correction you give. _________ C Steve here: Doctrine of devils. To use the Old Testament to justify paper membership in the church age, which is NOT taught anywhere in the Bible, is only one thing-- Luciferian. This preacher is out of control, and some of you beggars probably would invite him to preach in your church, AND give an altar call based on such drivel. _______________________ Hello Steve. Firstly I would like to tell you I very much liked your article The Sop or the Savior of the Sop. People have so many earthly fears and concerns, my wife is a godly woman who is fearful of a Clinton 2 Presidency. I said so what? If Hillary is elected it changes nothing in terms of my relation to my sovereign and King Jesus. Anyway I read your piece not long after talking with my wife and thought it well done. So about my "injury". I was on a flight to Atlanta and a gentleman took the seat next to me. In church we are doing a study on 1st and 2nd Peter so I had my Bible with me and reading St. Peter. The cat looked over saw what I was reading told me he was Christian too and an AV man. He asked if he could see my Bible so I handed it to him. He almost threw it back in my face! What is the matter I asked. YOU NEED A REAL KING JAMES! Now, I use an Oxford Clarendon edition. They do not make them anymore (Allan and Sons in Glasgow have the rights and do fine hand binding in highland goatskin, real old world quality, Google their site) anyway he told me that ONLY the Cambridge concord was the real AV......... and I might as well be using a Living Bible! Yes, he said that! I have a number of CUP Bibles including the concord, there are a FEW spelling variants, NOTHING that changes the meaning if the text. Overall most all high quality UK editions of the AV agree. He would have none of it. He did not speak to me again from Dallas to Atlanta (glad it was not a long flight) what say ye? How would you have handled this? I simply clammed up, I admit. Would love your opinion on this matter. Steve here: Can you believe this? Here is a KJV man sitting next to a KJV man, and the jerk de jour attacks a man reading the right Bible. I suppose some of you dim bulbs reading here would do the same thing because the guy's Bible had "soap" for "sope", right? Lord have mercy on us beasts who claim we are the late great narrow way. _______________________ Hello. Thank you from up here in Alberta Canada for your wonderful work and service. Just know that you and your work are appreciated. I so enjoy perusing it. God Bless, Bill _______________________ Yes my brother! I am low church. I hold to the 39 articles, which is FILLED with such terms as Popish Superstitions, Romish myths, and other terms of endearment! I attend an Reformed Episcopal Church as my home church , but in a broader sense I am very involved in the emerging Federation of Anglican Churches. By the bye! I caught a nasty cold from my wife and stayed in today, some people go to church sick or not sick to show how pious they are, I think being a walking biohazard is not pious at all! Stay HOME and ride it out! Lastly and before I forget COFFEE! I am the one who sent you the link to coffee review! CR is a great site! I was delighted to see you had put it up on your site as a link! Well, I am going to take some Thera-Flu. I shall try to find your comrade for you! Pray for my health! Grace and Peace to you and yours in the Name of Christ Jesus. MBC Steve Here: I pity you boys who have no warrior friends outside the box. Thus guy is in the battle against the destruction of the tiny bit of territory left from the English Reformation, and I can assure you he falls behind in nothing in that battle. _______________________ Thanks for the information you have on the internet. Many people in my family (who claim to be Christians) think that the Chronicles of Narnia are great. I read them 30 years ago before I had solid Biblical teaching. I have since realized that they are evil and have a lot of wrong doctrine. But yours was the only website that I could find that told how evil they are. All the other website are promoting them as a way to study the Bible. You pointed out many things that I hadn't realized about them. I knew they had a lot of occult symbols but I haven't studied it in depth (and don't care to do so!) So thanks for the information. I told several Christian friends about your website so we can hopefully help Christians to see the evil of the books. I'm also excited about the other parts of your website, especially the homemakers area. I'm a homemaker with a home-based accounting business. I love being home and available to my children. To me raising children to serve the Lord is the highest calling for a woman. Thanks for all the ideas for ladies. Keep up the good work. God bless!!!! Nancy _______________________ greetings, my name is andy and i am son of God by my faith in Jesus Christ. i am currently am a medic in the army in Iraq. Lord willing ill be home in under three months. i know that God uses nations to destroy or judge nations but to be honest i cant wait to leave the army. the reason for the email is my wife of 13 yrs and i are moving to the ________________ area. through prayer and Lords direction i really desire fellowship. I have 4 kids ages 3- 10 and am looking for kjv families who homeschool or just someone who reads the bible. I try hard to get people to read after going thru the gospel Pauls chp 1-4. fininshing with the first verse in chp 5. Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: Amen! but to most a week later secular movies or just crap seems more important. the reason im saying this is i really desire to find readers and doers. i mean someone who at minimum reads the Word thru 4 times a year. we eat 3 times a day why cant a person spend that much time in the word appx 90min. per day? 5 minutes here 20 minutes there all of a sudden a healthy portion of bread to grow thereby. im not a cemetarian nor care for any extra books other than the kjv. i cant speak hebrew or even order a sandwhich at a greek resuarant and apparently cant spell either. thank you for the site. if you find some time write back. someday either in heaven or in tenn. id like to meet with u. and talk about our Saviour the Lord Jesus and our Father the Most High God. andy _______________________ Firstly, it is no accident your website was 'found' and thank God for your frankness which is refreshing. I have been a believer for 30 years after accepting Yeshua as a depressed teenager. I have a Jewish background and after accepting Yeshua, ventured into 'church land'. Time will not allow me to describe my experiences, however proof my salvation is sure, is I draw closer to Yeshua as the time is at hand. . .not necessarily the catching away of the believers, but rather the refinement of the Bride which means earthly trouble and discomfort. . a non P(politically) C (correct) zone. With great intensity I read you section on Tithing (I give 10% because I want and love to do it) and giving. I would like to present information to you as I live in Glasgow, Scotland. . UK. . . Europe. The UK Government recently brought in something entitled " Gift Aid" for charities. So much has this come in that is available on our Postal Orders (US Money Order equivalent). In contemplation I thought, when does a government encourage people to give to charities? Gift Aid allows the UK government to give additional money (if you are a UK taxpayer) for every pound (£) given, however you must sign the Gift Aid declaration, allowing the UK government to check your charitable giving. They WILL keep record of what you give and who it's given to. A few years ago, I began to give to the GOD Channel. I made a 'pledge' and succumbed to the hype and faith giving prompt. At the time, I believe it was Mike Murdock and Paul Crouch who were on TV. At that time, I noticed a distinct difference in Rory and Wendy Alec who in times past were not given to much hype and publicity. Funds were always allocated to activities such as: drilling for water in remote parts of Africa, India and the Himalayas, with water pumps for locals to draw water for drinking and everyday usage. Also, building education huts in war torn parts of Africa where locals could read the Bible and receive free meals. After this era, European viewers were told the headquarters of GOD TV would relocate to the USA as Wendy and Rory Alec had moved. Firstly, they were accommodated by Rick Joyner and ministry for one year and subsequently, premises were found in Washington DC. They have been in the States for about 3 years with offices completed for 1 year and now launching on the airwaves of the States. . .of course transmitting from Jerusalem. My concerns is the change in programming and the giving methods which employ slick secular world marketing, formulas for giving and pledge projections. Each region raises funds for their own area and now broadcasting is global. I did not make my pledge that year and refused to sign the Gift Aid on biblical principals. Any ministry will be blessed by it's givers and increase will come from God and NOT the UK government. The price of Gift Aid has yet to be revealed. UK based ministry's believe they will be blessed by it's givers for signing the Gift Aid portion of the remittance. . . . many a fooled. GOD-TV contacted me numerous times by letter urging me to authorise Gift Aid, even called me once or twice. I cease from giving any funds to GOD-TV and freely give without pressure to a messianic Jewish ministry. Yes, I stopped giving to Benny Hinn 2 years ago because I was led of the Holy Spirit, without investigating the reasons. I did not feel comfortable receiving mail shots containing different challenges and appeals twice or three times per month. I recently researched the history of a "Rev. Ike" who is or had a massive following in the States. NOW, large ministries who once scoffed at him employ the very same mail shot tactics and techniques and catch phrases. I pity once solid ministries who were conduits of the Holy Spirit and now are part of the leaven. I could go on however scripture teaches. . .freely we have received, freely we give. The true "Bride" (10 wise Virgins) will be tested and tried soon. . . thank you and may Yeshua continue to strengthen your ministry which has confirmed many things I suspected. In Yeshua, C______________ Glasgow, Scotland Steve here: Her is a lady paying attention, and I sense she has limited teaching and direction in the Word except her own zeal. This proves that God's Holy Spirit will direct any saint who uses the Word of God to examine all things. Have you examined the things your pastor tells you that you should give to? _______________________ Hello, I have visited your site many times now. It is a blessing! I originally found it while reading a review of the Chronicles of Narnia movie. I was going to take my son to see it later in the afternoon that day. I was horrified when I read your review of the book and the author. I knew you were correct. I had never actually read all the books before myself. It was promoted so heavily by Dr. Dobson and others as "Christian," I brushed aside the quiet voice that said "that's not right." My son had spent the whole summer reading the six books over and over again. I let him read what you wrote and his response, without prompting on my part, was the same as mine. He thought it was bad, but was told it was good by people who he trusted. It became a lesson for both of us, our trust in God's Word alone. I wanted to thank you also for you explanation of why contemporary Christian music isn't honoring to God. I think I can now discern in any music, regardless of label, whether I should be listening or not. I no longer listen to the Southern Gospel station and we don't listen to Adventures in Odessy or Focus on the Family. My only complaint is that now I'm miserable at church! We recently voted on a new interim Pastor and I was the only no vote. He reads a passage from the bible, but then precedes to talk for 50 minutes about how to make the church grow and about what a spiritual warrior he is. Our church is now hosting Good Friday services for the ministerial alliance which he's a part of. When I asked why they celebrated Good Friday I was given a lame answer, something about they weren't really celebrating, and ignored. A part of me wants to flee and part of me is hoping this guy will only be temporary. Thank you for the reminder of my assurance. My son and I moved from N. California to the __________________ area almost 2 years ago. Almost a different planet! I love it here and the slower pace. My town has 500 people a post office, a bar and a gas station. The next town over has 1100 people. I had found a nice, small country church with a pastor and wife who love the lord. I loved how he would break out into a hymn when the words to express himself were inadequate. His wife died of gall bladder cancer in October and he had already resigned, thinking he'd have more time with her. Her funeral was a celebration of her going on to be with Jesus. Now it seems everyone but me wants to be "big". Youthquakes, conferences, after school programs.....death by activity! It's all about attendance and numbers, not souls. There's been in-fighting and gossip. In a small town, news travels very fast, all in the name of brotherly concern, of course! But a few people there have become good friends, though we disagree on a few things. They have helped me adjust to country life and have opened their homes and hearts to me. I want things to go back to the way they were. I enjoyed your article on the Arabs. It reminded me of my grandmother. She had adopted an Iranian family who came to the states when the Shah took power. She taught them English and helped them adjust to our culture. When I would go visit her near _________, we would go visit them and have dinner there. I had my first couscous there, yum! I made a call today to another church in town. It's the only independent baptist church in town. The pastor answered the phone and told me his statement of faith, who teaches Sunday school (he teaches the adults 12 and up and his wife and another lady teaches the kids), his strictness to the KJV (except he uses the amplified version for study because it has more adjectives?), and so on. I was on the same page with the pastor until membership came up. I was told that since the church I was saved at called themselves a non denominational church, though baptist affiliated, I would have to be baptized again in order to be a member. Now, I know that the pastor is trying to prevent other teachings, like church of Christ, from coming in, but I felt like he wanted to toss out something that is precious to me. Is my baptism not worth anything if I was taught wrong, or incompletely? They taught from the NASB and I was saved. OR is that even in doubt? I KNOW I AM SAVED! I am not the same person I used to be. I am so blessed, I have been forgiven of some horrible, disgusting things. Jesus is my joy. I fall away from time to time and he always is there for me when I call on him. How can I find a place to associate with the saints if their rules and traditions keep me away. I am discouraged. Or perhaps, I just don't become a member. I don't want to go from the frying pan into the fire. Do churches exists that don't celebrate Christmas and Easter, besides the Jehovah's Witness? I don't want to drag my son from church to church. Thanks for letting me vent, J__________ Steve here: I get a log of letters from godly ladies who are alone for various reasons. They may have kids, but whatever their situation, they all seem to be victims. The Fundamental Baptist world is brutal on single women. Jackboot preachers trample on single women the way Mormons and Muslims do, as if only through marriage can a woman be fulfilled. You preachers reading here better think long and hard about how you deal with single women. Here is another one where alleged saints abused a woman's mind: I really enjoyed reading your web site today. Of all days I needed this today, with tears running down my face I realized that this is me, the sinner who doesn't believe that God could ever forgive such sins. A sinner who was told that her physical condition was brought on by un-confessed sin. A sinner who struggles every day with questions and doubts. I know there is God, I have seen miracles in my short life as a believer, so why am I struggling with this. I have read theses passages , why can I not forget what I have done, why when I ask for forgiveness I feel unworthy to ask, unworthy to pray, most days I feel repetative and feel God is disgusted with me and won't listen to my nonsense anymore. I have been told by many that it's because I don't go to church, or I have sin in my heart, or maybe I didn't mean it when I asked God to forgive me. I am so confused and I feel hopeless. What is wrong with me? I have church every Sunday with my husband and three children, we talk and listen, we read scripture and touch base with our children, is there something wrong with this? Do I have to attend church? If I don't will my salvation be in jeopardy? And if someone could please explain to me what is "unconfessed sin" I would greatly appreciate it. Anyway, I love your web site and will continue to look daily. When I was sitting here reading the stories I actually for once in a long time thought maybe they are right, maybe God does love me and has forgiven and forgotten my sin. So I thank you for a great web site and for an uplifting message in a time or great need. Jill _______________________ Dear Steve, I have read your Journal for over 6 yrs., I believe. It is late and I must go to bed but I wanted to thank you for the Forgiveness article. It has blessed me. I am a preacher's kid and love the Lord dearly. My father, an AOG minister and evangelist sexually, physically and mentally abused me until I was able to tell my mother at 15 yrs. of age. My sister and mother have never forgiven my father and they are bitter to this day. Most of the awful things that have happened to me have been at the hands of my fellow "christians." The Lord brought me out of the "charismaniac" moves of the flesh and I've been pretty much an outcast and loner. My kids have suffered greatly and don't really know how to get past some of the hurts they have endured. Their father was a lame example as he was at the altar every time we could get him to church, professing how sorry he was and "it won't happen again!" I'm sure you know how it goes. I am divorced as of a year ago because we moved and he was supposed to come after he settled some financial messes he'd made and of course, never showed up. I am on SSDI with my own physical problems. It's hard to explain to my son that his life isn't like his friends because that's just what God had planned for him and something different for his friends. I'm trying to find a good church but the ones I've tried want commitments I can't keep because of my physical limitations or shove that money plate in my face 2 or three times for whatever causes and then berate you from the pulpit. I do not need to see a skit as to why I should sacrifice my coffee or TV money for the building fund for a church that's what - 10 yrs. old - and never had a home. But I do have the courage to go this Sunday to a place the Lord keeps bringing back to my mind. Thank you for your great work on the website. I have prayed for you many times over the years. You helped me when I was exhausted with the word of faith/blab and grab/money cometh thieves and I avidly read every thing you had as you were true to the Bible. Your site was, "a present help in time of trouble." Thank you. Sincerely, ________ Steve here: Some of you need to be very thankful it you only have a couple problems you are dealing with. There were two more horrible issues the lady has which I could not include because her identity would have been compromised. _______________________ Hi, I have been really worried, scared, in terrible torment, anxiety, depressed, etc. I pray from the Psalms at least once a day, and I do get peace for a few hours, then I have to pray again. But listening to the audio really really helped me. My problem: Athough I had a true born-again conversion about 16 years ago, and usually have great faith and feel secure in my salvation, I began to visit a local Catholic church to pray in the chapel, and visit the Mass, and I even read their Catechism and other books about it. Why? Because I grew up in it, and since so many churches in my city are dominated by occult practitioners who are in the closet and masquerading as Christians and messing up our churches, I hoped the Catholic church might have enough structure to at least prevent these occult imposters from influencing the worship service. I had been freaked out and scared by something that had been going on at my last church, counterfeit spirits, witchcraft, etc. Anyway, I began to experience the same phobic fears and terrors that had plagued me for most of my childhood. And the cult of "Redemptive Suffering" they believe in really upset me tremendously, because it contradicts all the scriptures about healing and deliverance that I've always stood on in faith. I began to be terrified of going to hell, and of all of my loved ones going to Hell, and then I began to anguish over all the unsaved people going to Hell. I felt myself continually burning with conviction of my sins and fearing for myself and everyone else going to Hell. I was terrified that maybe the Catholics are right that we have to "work out our own salvation with fear and trembling," and that all those who believe in Assurance are deceived. I was terrified of going to confession after over 30 years, but even more terrified of not going. I didn't go though. I'm all messed up spiritually now. I have suffered frequent demonic attacks during this time. Listening to the Psalms was a huge relief! Alexander Scourby seems to have the Holy Spirit working through his voice. If you have unlimited Long Distance on your phone, and you feel led to minister to me, I would sure appreciate it! I'm so very very very tired of being confused. _______________________ Hi Steve, I just wrote you regarding Hebrew Roots and am really struggling in my life. I was hoping you could take a moment to read this? I was raised Methodist, moved to Calvary Chapel, moved to Fundamental Baptist, moved to no church and a sloppy walk (realizing I wasn’t saved), turned to Judaism, CONVERTED to Judaism because of my Jewish wife, became convicted of my sin and was born again on __________, started turning towards the Hebrew Roots movement, and now find myself completely and utterly confused, disgusted with myself, frustrated, and tired. I just want to walk with God, study my Bible, and fellowship with a few believers. But I don’t know how to even study my Bible. Would you have any recommendations or advice for me on how to plant some roots and grow? Thank you _______________________ My only hope is Jesus Christ, God's only begotten Son. He is the lover of my soul. The Lord and I meet together in the mornings with a cup of coffee at my kitchen table. There I can spread out my Bible and my journal. I sometimes put on worship music or sing to Him myself. He allows me to talk and talk, but He expects me to listen and I try with the best of my ability. God has been so good to me and I always let Him know how much I love Him and appreciate Him for Who He is and What He has done and doing. I do not know how others make it on this journey without the Lord walking with them. I need Him and I have to have Him in my life or I would die. Thank
you. _______________________ Hi, I am really enjoying your page and I am gradually reading through it. I find the time for a few minutes quietness after the children are away to school and before I go to work. I live in Belfast in Northern Ireland and I was saved when I was eight years old. Yours
in our Lord Jesus _______________________ Dear Steve I have admired your courage in proclaiming the Truth about the pagan "holidays". I knew you were on the right trail. Those of us in the Church of God, movement, who are trying to restore apostolic Christianity are familiar with loneliness, or persecution. Yes, we won't have many friends---but, the friends are numerous. The sheep are scattered, but they are there. Remember how lonely Elijah was, but God came and encouraged him? I pray that you may yet grow even stronger in Spirit and Truth---and have the courage to share it. Yours
in Christ, _______________________ Hi brother, It's been about seven years now that I have been faithfully reading the journal. I wrote to you before about the challenges I have had with my dad who has reverted totally back to the satanic Catholic faith after supposedly becoming born again several years ago (of course I know now that his salvation was a blasphemous joke). But this time, it is more myself that I am concerned with. Yesterday my wife, son, and I went for our bi-weekly visit to my dad's. As he and I were alone in the living room, he began to spew out his Catholic garbage about the saints and Mary and the rest of the satanic filth, and basically downed and bashed my faith right in front of me, even though he knows full well that I do not practice the Catholic faith and that I am a fundamental Bible believing born again Christian. When I was saved, I, of course, left the Catholic sludge heap. At that time, I-- like most other new believers-- wanted my family to also be saved. I witnessed strongly to my dad and he told me soon afterward that he had received Christ as his savior and was born again. I saw some growth in him, even though I did not always approve of the sources (Jack van Imbecile and Charles Stanley), and I was thrilled as you can imagine. I have always been deathly afraid of my dad (even though he was a good father, he had a temper that could turn verbally violent at times), and as he spewed his Hellish vomit, downing my faith right in front of me (I didn't think that even my dad could have that audacity), I stood there like a mumbling fool. No, I did not deny my Lord and savior, but I did not defend Him or the true, fundamental faith either. I stuttered and stammered, even though I have been saved for 10 years now and know the Bible and my faith well. Throughout last night and today, I have been more depressed than I have ever been in my life. Yes, I am depressed about my dad's spiritual state (which shows him en route to Hell and the Lake of Fire); but I am also upset about my lack of a response even though I am a mature Christian. I am to the point where I believe I need to turn him over to Satan for the destruction of the flesh. I have almost also decided that I want nothing to do with him unless and until he repents. He is __ and knows of the true faith. He is not a little child that I should have to lead around by the tip of the nose. I have already witnessed to him and he claims to have gotten saved (about __ years ago), but he has, as I said, reverted wholeheartedly into Catholicism and I am sick about it. More than that, I feel like I have denied the Lord in that I did not stand for him. I am sick at heart and at the point of despair. What should I do? I do not want to hurt my dad, but the time is fast coming when I think I will have to turn my back on him and have no more contact with him. He has departed from the faith and is an infidel and a heretick. Even though he is my dad, I believe the Bible tells us to have no contact with such people. I hate myself most of all, but I am growing to the point where I hate him with the perfect hatred Psalms talks about since he has denied the faith. What should I do? I truly need some advice. Thanks, ___________ _______________________ Bro.Steve, Don't be discouraged by the lack of mail...I thank God and you for the "Quiet Place".I just finished reading Looking Back and it blessed my heart.I wish you and yours a wonderful and blessed new year and may we all continue looking UP for our redemption "draweth nigh"! Thank you for your dedication and commitment to this wonderful website. I just finished reading the "marks of a cult" and it was a real eye-opener. God Bless
You. _______________________ Steve, I am in Kansas, 30 miles southwest of Wichita. I have an older friend, a korean war vet marine, who has been big into the freedom movement. Not sure if he is saved, but he is the closest I've got to a christian friend here. He had me take him to a meeting last winter, where they had this character just known as "Israel" speak. He was pushing the original 1611 king james bible, the one with the original spelling. This friend of mine drives without a driver's license or vehicle tag or insurance and gets arrested occasionally. This "Israel" had worked out some sort of scheme to defend yourself if you got arrested. He had this group of sheep thinking he was some kind of guru. I disputed with him right away and he got pretty hot under the collar, having his authority challenged. Even though he had the 1611 king james bible, he produced documents to supposedly prove that we were still under authority of the Queen of England and ultimately the Pope in Rome. Every time he or one of his followers gets arrested, he files papers by FAX with President Bush, Queen Elizabeth, and the Pope. This guy had a tan skin and looked kind of semitic. I figured he might well be a CIA agent working to infiltrate the freedom movement. Later I heard he was having meetings in a Four Square church in Wichita. In Christ, Gary _______________________ Dear Steve, This is good stuff - you dare to bare your soul. Love your tears brother ...I know the taste ... tonight I sit here too, with only my beleoved wife as a friend on this Earth. I share your sense of being alone. Please accept my brotherly hug from across a great many miles, and know that I am your brother in Christ Jesus, who would dearly love to have coffee with you today. Because of Him dear man, _______________________ I find your various points of view both refreshing and biblical, and am curious as to whether or not you act as any sort of helper to those of us in "dry" regions like the Northeast who crave fellowship. Any response would be appreciated. Mark in Warlock, RI Steve: If you, a reader, have any suggestiong for Mark, Send Mail _______________________ Hi, I am a born again Christian who has been on a journey out of fundamentalist thinking for 3 years now. I was a faithful member at a very conservative Independent Baptist church for 7 years and now I have recently left. I kindly told my pastor that I did not believe in the one man show kind of ministy and was told as I was leaving that I was "forsaking the assembly." The Lord has opened my eyes through sources like the Blessed Quietness journal and I believe I am now paying for it. I go to the institutionalized churches and I see nothing but God's people "sitting on benches" while they watch the MVP (the pastor) shine. I am tired of the typical church building scenario and am looking for a house church to attend. I would appreciate your prayers. I was wondering if you might recommend a house church in the Pensacola, FL- Mobile, AL area? I would travel a distance to find one. I am very distressed because I surrendered to preach 12 years ago and I think I could be used in a ministry that is not controlled by a pastor/monarch. Thanks for your input. sincerely, Brian _______________________ My name is Gary. I found your help page for anxiety and wanted to let you know how much I appreciated it. For a year and a half I've dealt with anxiety and emotional stress. No, I'm not in sin and it hit me hard out of nowhere. However, with the help of a great Godly councilor, I'm on my way back. The information you give has helped a great deal and as I read it more and apply it more, I'm sure it will help me grow. I just turned 48 and have been a Christian since 1982. You would think I would have learned enough to not get caught off guard but God's blessings have been "renewed" to me daily and I just want to let you know, your pages have been one of those renewing. Sincerely, Gary _______________________ |
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